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[08 Jan 2005|02:08am] [ mood | loved ] rawr, late night (or shall I say early morning) phone calls with that boy <3 Makes me stay up late for him...psh... Today was good.. although I didn't get to see my woman... I got ditched at lunch to see some girls play v-ball in shorts.. psh... I might see Alex this weekend.. movie time! And i think Rhea wants to chill.. with lish and I so that should be fun. I went skating today with Kaitlyn... People are so mean to Scott.. aww.. poor guy... Are all the rumours true about him.. and uhhh.. alex's cleavage in french class?? aww... This week was lazy.. and long, and im gunna sleep long. And i have so much stuff due next week... crap. Just thought i'd update this bad boy.. cause.. i havent in awhile.. 2 love bites| comment

hack hack hack hack hack hack hack hack hack hack hack [23 Dec 2004|02:30pm] EILISH HAS BROKEN THE SYSTEM!!!! YOU HAVE BEEN HACKED!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA EILISH IS THE QUEENN!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAa 1 love bite| comment

you raise my passion. [13 Nov 2004|12:46am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | come on and give it to me baby (8) ] Things change, People change Deal with it? 1. Copy this whole list into your journal. 2. Bold/underline the things that are true about you. 3. Whatever you don`t bold/underline is false. 01. I miss somebody right now 02. I don`t watch much TV these days 03. I love olives 04. I love sleeping 05. I own lots of books 06. I wear glasses or contact lenses 07. I love to play video games 08. I`ve tried marijuana 09. I`ve watched porn movies 10. I have been in a threesome 11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship 12. I believe honesty is USUALLY the best policy 13. I have acne free skin. except for the acne bit. 14. I like and respect Al Sharpton 15. I curse frequently 16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year 17. I have a hobby 18. I`ve been told I have an applebottom 19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me 20. I`m really, really smart 21. I`ve never broken someone`s bones 22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal 23. I hate the rain 24. I`m paranoid all the time 25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scars 26. I need money right now 27. I love sushi 28. I talk really, really fast sometimes 29. I chew gum when I sleep a lot of the time 30. I have semi-long hair 31. I have lost money in Las Vegas 32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister 33. I was born in a country outside of Canada 34. I shave my legs on a regular basis 35. I have a twin 36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past 37. I couldn`t survive without Caller I.D. 38. I like the way that I look sometimes 39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months 40. I know how to do cornrows 41. I am usually pessimistic 42. I have a lot of mood swings 43. I think prostitution should be legalized 44. I think Britney Spears is hot. 45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past 46. I have a hidden talent 47. I`m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have 48. I think that I`m popular to an extent 49. I am currently single 50. I have kissed someone of the same sex 51. I enjoy talking on the phone 52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants 53. I love to shop 54. I would rather shop than eat 55. I would classify myself as ghetto 56. I`m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders 57. I`m obsessed with my blogger 58. I don`t hate anyone 59. I`m a pretty good dancer 60. I don`t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington 61. I`m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother 62. I have a cell phone 63. I believe in a superior being, not necessarily God. 64. I watch MTV (MuchMusic) on a daily basis 65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months 66. I love drama 67. I have never been in a real relationship before 68. I`ve rejected someone before 69. I currently have a crush on someone 70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life 71. I want to have children in the future 72. I have changed a diaper before 73. I`ve called the cops on a friend before 74. I bite my nails 75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club 76. I`m not allergic to anything that I know of 77. I have a lot to learn 78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger 79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube`s newest "Friday" movie 80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes 81. I`m online 24/7 82. I have at least 5 away messages saved 83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before 84. I have made a move on a friend`s significant other in the past 85. I own the "South Park" movie 86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on blogger 87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor 88. I enjoy some country music (what happened to 89?) 90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza 91. I watch soap operas whenever I can 92. I`m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist 93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career 94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all 95. I know all the words to Slick Rick`s "Children`s Story" 96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy 97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it 98. I have dated a close friend`s ex 99. I`m happy as of this moment 100. I`m gay. comment

imbeinghunted. [02 Nov 2004|01:45pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | leftover crack-gang control ] Leftover crack has saved my boredness once again. Im so coming to school tmw.. i keep getting yelled at to go 'lie down'.. pft, thats not going to make me feel any better.. its going to make me bored... I have laringytis (sp?), yes you all may laugh at my voice.. its quite funny. Well anyways.. i might as well post pictures of lish and I from the weekend.. something to look at... Im looking through some of them now.. eilish you were having fun with my webcam while i was gone weren't ya =P Well anyways.. heres just some of the pictures we took.. ( Fuck the police ) 3 love bites| comment

happy halloween [31 Oct 2004|10:28pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | death cab for cutie-tiny vessels ] What a night... I was going to go out for halloween.. but then i got into one of my 'moods' and went inside.. and then my daddy told me to hand out candy... I came upstairs in my empty room.. and sharisse came down.. and we watched the end of beetlejuice.. [8] shake shake shake senora [8].. haha.. and then we went for a walk.../ It made me realize.. that i miss talking to her about everything.. *our* talks.. no one interrupting us.. just us complaining about everything.. being happy about other things.. it was like old times. We past fischers house.. where some of the gr 9 skaters were.. and they started yelling at us.. so we were yelling back.. and we got candy thrown at us.. hahaha.. they love us.. We talked a bit about the party on friday.. and how she kept interrupting me.. haha we talked from about everything... it was cool... We tryed to go bug changhai.. but no one was home... we almost got lost.. cause we went down keeler.. and she wanted to go one way.. and i wanted to go the other (to get out of that area).. and ha! i was right =P you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me On our way home, we met up with kristin.. dear god.. im so glad she's okay... I wish i could have been there while it happened.. but its okay.. shes okay, and thats all that matters... I dunno.. i just had a really good talk with sharisse... Ive lost all hope in love.. after today..after talking with danielle.. like wow.. How could that happen? Things just happen in a flash, eh? Now i know why not to fall in love.. How can something make you so happy one minute, and sad the next? Life's so confusing... But i'll put on my act for tmw.. the happy girl... i am.. (sure) Maybe i wont even go to school tmw. Maybe i'll die before tmw? Would you care if i died anyways? Like really, would YOU Would you be there if i needed you? Like really.. i have so many questions built up in my head.. bah. we'll pretend we have something so much more 1 love bite| comment

party hardy [31 Oct 2004|12:08am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | watching poltergeist ] Last night, was really fun... I forgot how it was like to dance... Last night reminded me of gr 7/8 dances.. except with new people... I met some really cool people, that i saw around but never met them... There was alex farmer (jds friend), greg (the koolest kid around!!!), andrew (hippie dude), jessica (tegans friend), and collin ('will paint for sex' kid, he also won best costume haha) Lots of dancing.. Sharisse kept dragging me to dance.. but i was hot *rawr* Haha.. greg kept kissing peoples forehead.. and sharisse kept stealing people away from him... awww.. who was cuter? Changhai or Evan? Aww.. they were both so cute!! Evan was all like done up.. and greek gino.. haha.. and changhai looked like he got beat up =P Aww, both so very cute. Everyone was grindin' up on everybody.. it was funny.. Tegan kept grindin' up in my bizznazz yo! Of course, i had to do it back to her ;) Kaitlyn and lynsie were dressed as cheerleaders.. they were mah bitches! I was a pimpppppp!!! At first, when i got there i thought it wouldnt be fun.. but then.. it turned out to be fun :) I was really open last night.. i wasnt shy at all.. go me? Wow.. just a really good night... 'we're having a moment' 1 love bite| comment

[23 Oct 2004|09:24pm] [ mood | curious ] T'was a good day... Eilish and I met up with Kaitlyn at le mall. Oh my, if it wasnt for Eilish, kaitlyn and I would have never found anything for christina... I like the whole theme idea for birthdays =P Mine should be.. carebears! or frogs! =P hehe Mm west 49 guy.. yup.. Oh god, I saw this girl jessica who went to my cousins school there.. and we were just staring at eachother for like a minute.. and then i turned around.. i dislike her. Mm sunrise guy...yuup... I want a punk-ass boyfriend the hell! I know what im going to be for halloween...its gunan be hot.. wait and see. Louis's party thing on friday.. YaY I want that 'stay single' shirt.. haha Now i'll end this journal entry off with a survey-thing. ( survey-izzy-bizzy ) 4 love bites| comment

[20 Oct 2004|10:08pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | project orange-tell all your friends ] Gah, I hate this. I hate people. Tons of people. I hate woburn people especially. But i love my alex, and lynsie, and kaitlyn, and kyle..ect.. You can cross the distance outside, i'll be waiting for you inside... Lately Ive been telling people, to just get a grip and get with the program! I mean, life doesn't fully suck? Does it? IT CANT! I mean.. like.. its life.. it cant cOMPLETELY suck.. right? Well.. i dont think mine does.. Im sick and tired of people.. going all like 'thats flirting'.. fuck you. Maybe to them its flirting, but to the 2 people or whatever.. thats just how they may act around eachother.. Unless, its a different reason ;) heh. I tend to hold grudges.. you know...oh you know. And all those grudges were haunting me tonight.. i just wanted to yell at people on my msn list. Even people i was really closed to BEFORE tons of things.... but i mean like.. forget about it, right. Maybe thats why i have 2 msn groups. 'beasts' and 'humans'.. 'humans' are the people i love to be with.. you know. 'beasts'.. are well exactly what it sounds like. Figure out which one your under. 'Friends are forever, guys are whatever' Bullshit. Guys have like corrupted all of our minds. Like, gosh.. theres not many out these days. *pauses for sharisse sending me a pic* My oh my. Now i know why she likes this pic ;) *ahem!* Viki, im coming tuesday. jus.. you know.. remind me.. I gots to see people.. IS THE COOKIE STILL THERE?! PATRICK! I made you a picture =) And you better like it, or i'll beat u with a stick! =P 4 love bites| comment

shes right in the middle of a good dream [16 Oct 2004|10:39pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | goo goo dolls-iris ] And I'd give up forever to touch you.. cause I know that you feel me somehow...your the closest to heaven that i'll ever be, and I dont wanna go home right now... Fun day... =] Danielle came down.. YAY.. we went to bug eilish.. who was half naked at that time.. then we went to get kristin but then called her instead and she said she'd meet us at wendys.. then we see jason and michii... then we call steve.. because i told him to come down this weekend..and he met us all at wendys.. then kristin came down... then it rained.. i love the rain... then kristin and i saw teej and trevor coming so we raced through the wendys door and jumped them.. kristin jumped tj, i jumped trev 'READY!? SWITCH!' LoL Then kristin left us =( I love you hunnay bunches.. <3 CHEATING BIIIZZNATCH! bitch pleasE! lmao! We went to go bug andy.. but he couldnt come out.. then we went to go bug chris.. haha chris's hair =P Don't you love her madly? The nervous game.. heh heh =P lol We went to the park after chris left... Jason was running with me on his shoulder.. AHH i scream so loud. lol Steve got pants'd.. lmao! It was high-larious! Trevors fun to jump... Danielle i miss youuu.. NEXT WEEKEND YAY! Kristin- are we sick of pizza yet? nope! LoL Us and our lunches! eilish- every weekenddd always one of us staying at the others.. yeeesh! Tonite! We watching the 'ants in my pants!!' AND 'disturbing behaviour'.. man we could be in the video store for hours just picking out a damn video! lol ROCK THE CASBAH!!!! Bitch please! Its the freakin' shiznit down in the hoooood! AHHHH!! Twas a fun day!!! I love group days!!! Especially since it was.. a weird group of people.. c'mon like.. me, lish, danielle, kristin, teej, trev, michii and jason.. oh my.. lol But yeah.. =) tehehe... Ah! Im looking at kaitlyns name.. DIE BUNNY!!! Oh my, science is so fun...the singing.. the stupid bunny ;) LoL the whole 'property of jim'.. yup good ol' jim.. i think we've just about scared him =P  I think i love you, so what am i so afaidd of, im afraid that im not sure of a love that theres no cure of! i think i love u isnt that what life was made of! Do y0u think you love me? 1 love bite| comment

wicka wicka weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee [13 Oct 2004|08:41pm] [ mood | cold ] I think im going to make a new email soon.. Dont know why.. i jus like new emails.. nice and clean inbox.. mmm Doug look ive updated! =P ITS SO COLD IN MY HOUSE! Why am I always so cold? :'( I neeed a huggggg *hug* 2 love bites| comment

[07 Oct 2004|06:23pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | afi-leaving song pt.2 ] Im sO tired... We got out of school.. at 12:15pm.. and I JUST got home now.. THATS CRAZY! I went to the assembly first period.. YAY lynsie and kaitlyn! Second period [histoire].. boring... Dance-movieeee And science worksheetsss Then afterschool I ended up dragging renee down to the store with me.... Then I ended up tempting her to eat lunch with mee... cus she was broke.. and I had money... 'renee loook at all the goood combos.. SMEELLLLL!!!' We were eating, when christina and tegan came inside.. we were talking to them for about an hour or so... Then we FINALLY headed off home... we saw louey, omar, and changhai.. so we quickly dropped our stuff at home.. and went to bug them at changhai's. Changhai has a SEX PAD LoL.. and all him, omar, and louey talk about.. oh boys! tsk tsk! lol Then I thought hm? Maybe i should get going before my mom kills me since she had no idea where I was and she knew i got off early.. So, i got home.. 'hi mom, going out with renee bye!' Renee and I ended up going to the park.. WHICH IS GONE! NO MORE TEETER TOTTER! STUPID PEOPLE.. so we went to wonder around.. we saw mr.fORDE! LoL! We ended up chatting to him... Then we left around 4ish... Then we bumped into eilish... Eilish and I walked renee home.. and eilish dragged me back to her place.. where she showed me WICKED dollarstore stuff.. im so going there tmw! And now im finally home.. and I have hmw.. but we have a late start tmw.. but yeah.. I love early dismissals.. 2 love bites| comment

lets see eye to eye [03 Oct 2004|04:11pm] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | love will tear us apart-joy division ] Im not in a happy mood... im weird...not that im not happy or anything.. im just not in that mood... I have nothing to blog about.. because nothing is really happening... I had a weird dream.. where I was was watching myself die.. it was entertaining... I feel like.. Im in one of my moods where I want to run away.. but then, i'd have nowhere to go.. I wouldnt get very far... maybe past my driveway... I feel like no one understands me, but then again, I dont tell people my problems, because I dont trust people these days... Im so complicated.. life's so complicated.. Why couldnt it be as easy as abc.. 123... Maybe i should start caring about what I want.. and not what others want.. but then i'd be selfish, wouldnt i...? I dunno.. i have lots to think about.. but i dont feel like thinking... its sunday.. I dont feel like doing anything on my sundays.. jus lazying around.. or perhaps watching a movie... Lifes to complicated to think about on sundays 3 love bites| comment

[30 Sep 2004|06:57pm] Ah shoot. I forgot my history textbook... I ALWAYS leave a piece of homework at school.. when its due the next day.. bahh Okay well, Photobucket was actually being nice to me :) so, i got to upload some pictures from the weekend.. of the gang and I.. =) ( I love these people<333 ) 2 love bites| comment

[29 Sep 2004|04:46pm] [ mood | pissed off ] Im not in the greatest mood... Mr.Bacon calls my father saying how I didn't do the first [and only so far] assignment we had... and how he doesnt want this continuing to happen.. HE GAVE ME THE ASSIGNMENT BACK WITH MY MARK ON IT YESTERDAY! Arr.. it pisses me off, cos' my parents are idiots, and dont beileve it when i say i did it. AND okay, so the only time i dont have my backpack is during dance... its in the locker room.... Well, alot of my stuff got stolen such as money, and all my bus tickets. Yeah, that was my fuckin' day.... I hate woburn.. i wanna leave. And im gunna find a way to leave by next year. i hate this school. i hate the people. i hate everything.. or Im just having a bad day... Altho, i did get to see cute guy on the bus today.. Well the guy lynsie use to describe as cute guy.. yeah i think it too =P He walks down keeler.. hm.. maybe i'll stalk him one day... comment

[26 Sep 2004|08:32pm] [ mood | bouncy ] Not a bad weekend.. not one bit :) Friday: Went over to centennial to see if skating was opened.. but supposely it doesn't start till octoberish? So, we [we meaning, lyns,lish,doug,tj,brit,theyre friends shannon and scott, and myself].. went over to mcdonalds and just chilled for a bit... Saturday: Lish, tj, doug, lynsie, and I watched 'american history x' over at eilish's... Later it was just lish, doug, rhea and I sitting up on the hill... The sky was pretty.. it was like orangy.. and im a fan of orange nowadays... Today: I was really lazy, and neglecting my hmw... I watched 2 movies on family channel.. hahaha.. then ended up doing some hmw.. Then lish, doug, and lyns showed up at my door and we headed up to lynsies to watch 'trainspotting'... doug raped me.. lmao I kept intruding on doug and eilish.. hahaha Then from eilish's later, i watched the wedding singer.. i love that movie... Yep, that was my weekend.. And this week, i doubt i'll do alot of hanging out.. i have tests and assignments due this week.. which kinda sucks.. alot. comment

[22 Sep 2004|10:09pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | green day-boulevard of broken dreams ] Ahoy hoy! Good day.. nothing bad.. lol Tamara has ditched me 2nd time in math today.. im lonely without her beside me =( English..yadda yadda.. i like english.. but my teacher scares me... Lunch-hung in the caf for a bit with michelle, sharisse, and ney.. then went out... Media arts-looked at our pics.. oh GOD! Bad grid of 3rds.. bad bad bad lol Civics.. some moon thing.. lol Eilish called me up.. 'yo wanna go for a walk' 'okay, see ya soon:P' We hung up on the hill.. such a beautiful hill.. and we both came to the conclusion that we could just like live with our neighborhood friends.. like lyns,brit,teej,kyle,trev,kristin, ect.. with the exception of like doug and kaitlyn. Like, i seriously could.. i wouldn't need any other friends but THEM. Like we're the neighborhood gang.. we all hang out all the time.. its fun.. i know i can count on all of them... Like, i love those guys.. If your not one of them.. who cares.. i dont need you.. i have them! and theyre the greatest people alive.. we're all so different in our own ways.. but yet the same.. i love them!! We're like a big family.. Like yeah,i met new and cool people this yr and last.. but i love my neighborhood friends more.. theyve always been there for me.. i loveee you allll! Wow, I dont know why.. but theres something thats been making me really happy lately.. its different.. a good different.. and i like it.. well obviously, cos' its making me happy! hmm.. oh wells :) whatever it is.. thanks. 2 love bites| comment

save me [20 Sep 2004|10:27pm] [ mood | working ] [ music | have a good sleep-hot hot heat ] Ive become addicted to reading.. not like thats a bad thing.. but like i dont read often.. but when i do.. i get really into the book.. and i jus keep reading and reading... But its not a bad thing.. i like reading.. =) I feel smart. I totally bombed the math test, but then again, i totally forgot about the y=mx+b crap.. which i knew! im telling you, i knew this stuff! Civics was fun.. we got into groups and got at war.. but then we wanted to resolve the conflict safely, but then 2 groups wouldnt.. so we joined up.. and got to war.. it was fun =) Media arts we got to take pictures.. i loooove taking pik-dures. =) I need to get a couple of my films developed too... I visited my daddy at the hospital.. for like 2 secs i was there.. cos' I didnt wanna bug him.. but yah, hes doing okay.. i think? And i bought junk food.. cos' its monday, and i was home alone till 8ish.. and i cant cook.. like renee said if i cooked, my parents wouldnt have anything to come back too! =P I have homework...and alot of it.. to get too.. at this time of night. Im such a procrastinator 2 love bites| comment

wake me up, before you go go [19 Sep 2004|10:18pm] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | people messaging me.. ahhh ] okay, so like.. im so dragging alex down here for an adventure.. i hav uploaded the pics.. and here they are! Oh and yeah, pretty good weekend =P Happy 16th viki! ( afterschool adventure ) 1 love bite| comment

[18 Sep 2004|12:36am] [ mood | crazy ] What a good'ay. School was schoool.. dance seemed like it took forever... Afterskewl, Tj, Brandon, Scott, and josh? i think it was came down... Alex walked with us.. and we were on our mission.. we took Digi cam pics! I shall post soontime.. We even asked some random guy to stand still so we could take a pic hahaha.. We even got a great shot of dougs ass... hahaha Funny day... I also got to visit my daddy in the hospital.. which was nice... I'll post pics of the mission soontime! And pics from yesterday too...! comment

When I come around... [14 Sep 2004|06:48pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | drinking for 11-mad caddies ] Baby, your my ecstacy. Im so tired, i need more sleep, i hate getting up early JUST to go to school. math was math English was english.. i now sit at the front =\ lunch was lunch civics was civics.. watched more of the 'pay it forward' media arts was media arts.. looked at some of mr.bacons pictures Wanna know what you're feeling if your feeling alone I wanna hear if you still care The last time i remember you was the last time i wasn't scared When the nights start fading and the mornin' arrives I wanna still feel you around Will you creep into my head again and pick me up off the ground Once more and tell me what you're fighting for Gotta try gotta try for tmw (8) you cant see through today... Im in one of my 'get the fuck away from me you bitch.' I dont know why.. its my tired-ness... I wish I didnt exist... I wish i was never born... AOLLLL!!!! I totally forgot about aol.. and all the kool american friends I have on it.. aol here i come. I have 3 bruises.. on my leg.. that I have NO idea where they came from.. im started to think, someone beats me in my sleep =| I bought playdoh... its fun to play with.. The dollarstore has tons of neat stuff that im amused by... ITs purple.. and gooey... yadda yadda...  I better get going on my history hmw... yadda yadda. Milalala(8) 1 love bite| comment

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