//.like a girl stuck in a moving car.//

cam_wh0re @ 2005-01-08T02:08:00

2005-01-08T07:24:57Z

rawr, late night (or shall I say early morning) phone calls with that boy <3
Makes me stay up late for him...psh...

Today was good.. although I didn't get to see my woman...
I got ditched at lunch to see some girls play v-ball in shorts.. psh...
I might see Alex this weekend.. movie time!
And i think Rhea wants to chill.. with lish and I so that should be fun.

I went skating today with Kaitlyn...
People are so mean to Scott.. aww.. poor guy...
Are all the rumours true about him.. and uhhh.. alex's cleavage in french class??
aww...

This week was lazy.. and long, and im gunna sleep long.
And i have so much stuff due next week... crap.

Just thought i'd update this bad boy..
cause.. i havent in awhile..

hack hack hack hack hack hack hack hack hack hack hack

2004-12-23T19:31:25Z

EILISH HAS BROKEN THE SYSTEM!!!!
YOU HAVE BEEN HACKED!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA
EILISH IS THE QUEENN!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAa

you raise my passion.

2004-11-13T05:50:39Z

Things change,
People change
Deal with it?

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold/underline the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don`t bold/underline is false.

01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don`t watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I`ve tried marijuana
09. I`ve watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is USUALLY the best policy
13. I have acne free skin. except for the acne bit.
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I`ve been told I have an applebottom
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I`m really, really smart
21. I`ve never broken someone`s bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I`m paranoid all the time
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scars
26. I need money right now
27. I love sushi
28. I talk really, really fast sometimes
29. I chew gum when I sleep a lot of the time
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of Canada
34. I shave my legs on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn`t survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to do cornrows
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot.
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I`m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I`m popular to an extent
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I`m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I`m obsessed with my blogger
58. I don`t hate anyone
59. I`m a pretty good dancer
60. I don`t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I`m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in a superior being, not necessarily God.
64. I watch MTV (MuchMusic) on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I`ve rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I`ve called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I`m not allergic to anything that I know of
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube`s newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I`m online 24/7
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend`s significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on blogger
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor
88. I enjoy some country music (what happened to 89?)
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I`m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick`s "Children`s Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend`s ex
99. I`m happy as of this moment
100. I`m gay.

imbeinghunted.

2004-11-02T18:45:32Z

Leftover crack has saved my boredness once again.

Im so coming to school tmw.. i keep getting yelled at to go 'lie down'.. pft, thats not going to make me feel any better.. its going to make me bored...
I have laringytis (sp?), yes you all may laugh at my voice.. its quite funny.
Well anyways.. i might as well post pictures of lish and I from the weekend.. something to look at...
Im looking through some of them now.. eilish you were having fun with my webcam while i was gone weren't ya =P Well anyways.. heres just some of the pictures we took..

HAHAHAHAHHAH!!!!

happy halloween

2004-11-01T03:28:01Z

What a night...
I was going to go out for halloween.. but then i got into one of my 'moods' and went inside.. and then my daddy told me to hand out candy...
I came upstairs in my empty room.. and sharisse came down.. and we watched the end of beetlejuice.. [8] shake shake shake senora [8].. haha.. and then we went for a walk.../
It made me realize.. that i miss talking to her about everything.. *our* talks.. no one interrupting us.. just us complaining about everything.. being happy about other things.. it was like old times.
We past fischers house.. where some of the gr 9 skaters were.. and they started yelling at us.. so we were yelling back.. and we got candy thrown at us.. hahaha.. they love us..

We talked a bit about the party on friday.. and how she kept interrupting me.. haha
we talked from about everything...
it was cool...
We tryed to go bug changhai.. but no one was home...
we almost got lost.. cause we went down keeler.. and she wanted to go one way.. and i wanted to go the other (to get out of that area).. and ha! i was right =P

you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me

On our way home, we met up with kristin.. dear god.. im so glad she's okay...
I wish i could have been there while it happened.. but its okay.. shes okay, and thats all that matters...

I dunno.. i just had a really good talk with sharisse...

Ive lost all hope in love.. after today..after talking with danielle.. like wow..
How could that happen? Things just happen in a flash, eh?
Now i know why not to fall in love..

How can something make you so happy one minute, and sad the next?

Life's so confusing...
But i'll put on my act for tmw.. the happy girl... i am.. (sure)
Maybe i wont even go to school tmw.
Maybe i'll die before tmw?

Would you care if i died anyways? Like really, would YOU
Would you be there if i needed you?
Like really.. i have so many questions built up in my head.. bah.

we'll pretend we have something so much more

party hardy

2004-10-31T04:17:53Z

Last night, was really fun...
I forgot how it was like to dance...
Last night reminded me of gr 7/8 dances.. except with new people...

I met some really cool people, that i saw around but never met them...
There was alex farmer (jds friend), greg (the koolest kid around!!!), andrew (hippie dude), jessica (tegans friend), and collin ('will paint for sex' kid, he also won best costume haha)

Lots of dancing.. Sharisse kept dragging me to dance.. but i was hot *rawr*
Haha.. greg kept kissing peoples forehead.. and sharisse kept stealing people away from him...
awww.. who was cuter? Changhai or Evan? Aww.. they were both so cute!! Evan was all like done up.. and greek gino.. haha.. and changhai looked like he got beat up =P Aww, both so very cute.

Everyone was grindin' up on everybody.. it was funny..
Tegan kept grindin' up in my bizznazz yo! Of course, i had to do it back to her ;)
Kaitlyn and lynsie were dressed as cheerleaders.. they were mah bitches!
I was a pimpppppp!!!

At first, when i got there i thought it wouldnt be fun.. but then.. it turned out to be fun :)
I was really open last night.. i wasnt shy at all.. go me?
Wow.. just a really good night...

'we're having a moment'

cam_wh0re @ 2004-10-23T21:24:00

2004-10-24T01:41:49Z

T'was a good day...
Eilish and I met up with Kaitlyn at le mall.
Oh my, if it wasnt for Eilish, kaitlyn and I would have never found anything for christina...
I like the whole theme idea for birthdays =P Mine should be.. carebears! or frogs! =P hehe
Mm west 49 guy.. yup..
Oh god, I saw this girl jessica who went to my cousins school there.. and we were just staring at eachother for like a minute.. and then i turned around.. i dislike her.
Mm sunrise guy...yuup...

I want a punk-ass boyfriend
the hell!

I know what im going to be for halloween...its gunan be hot.. wait and see.
Louis's party thing on friday.. YaY
I want that 'stay single' shirt.. haha

Now i'll end this journal entry off with a survey-thing.

personal
name: Mila
dob: april 24, '89
location: scarborough
religion: orthodox
occupation: curb sitter

appearance
hair: redish/brownish
eyes: brown
height: 5'5
style: warm and comfy
clothing: easy to wash =P
music: all kinds.. 80's biatch
make up: nothing really.. maybe eye liner here and there..
bodyart: nahhh

right now
wearing: sweater, and pants
listening to: [8] paranoia, paranoia, everybodys coming to get me[8]
thinking of: sleep.. or watching a movie.. pick one
where are you: my room
who are you with: by..my..self?

last thing
bought: black and white stripey socks
read: 'night shift' by stephen king, which i am still currently reading
watched on tv: some show
said: see you later?

either/or
club or houseparty: houseparty
tea or coffee: tea
achiever or slacker: slacker
beer or cider: cider?
drinks or shots: drinks
cats or dogs: cats
single or taken: single
pen or pencil: pen
gloves or mittens: mittens
cassette or cd: cd
coke or pepsi: coke
hard or mild alcohol: hard?
matches or a lighter: lighter
rikki lake or oprah winfrey: oprah? wth

who do you want to..?
kill: HER! no one hurts him! ya'hear me? NO ONE. Im gunna kill her with my golf club.. if i have one...
get really wasted with: eilish
look like: pft i dont know
be like: pft.. please...im myself.
avoid: reality
kiss: uhhhh... shush you!
be with: my friends

last person you... and when
touched: eilish
talked to:eilish/kaitlyn
hugged: eilish/kaitlyn
instant messaged: sharisse
kissed: oh god.. um.. awhile ago..like Tj or soemthing.. one of those guys.. OH YAH i kissed kyle on the cheek a few days ago
who broke your heart: pfft, my hearts still together <3
fought with: my mom...
you talked to on the phone: kaitlyn

where do you
eat: music hall...
dance: in my room.. and dance class
cry: in my bed
wish you were: on my couch.

have you ever
dated one of your best friends?: well back THEN they weren't my best friends
loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: pft. im not answering this.
drank alcohol?: yes
done drugs?: no
broken the law?: yes.. oh god, rhea gets me in so much trouble lol
ran away from home?: how about.. down the street?
broken a bone?: no
cheated on a test?: yea...
skinny dipped?: no
played truth or dare?: yeah.. oh god gr 7/8...
flashed someone?: not fully.
mooned Someone?: no
kissed someone you didn't know?: yeah.. at a party.. and i didnt know who he was.. and it was truth and dare
been on a talk show/game show?: I was in the audience in uh-oh.. in both gr 7 and 8
been in a fight?: yes
ridden in a fire truck?: um.. no i dont thin so
been on a plane?: yes
come close to dying?: yes
cheated on your boy/girlfriend?: no
gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride?: yeah
eaten a worm/mud pie?: no
swam in the ocean?: yea
had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up?: YES
really kissed someone of the same sex: yeah.. lol

my ideal
guy/girl: someone who i can just have fun with.. and..someone who can put up with me!!!
your bedroom like?: messy
your favorite thing for breakfast?: bacon and eggs
your favorite thing for lunch?: mmm bagel
your favorite thing for dinner?: everything lol
your favorite restaurant?: uhh i dont go out to rrestaurants THAT often

future
what day is it tomorrow?: sunday
what are you going to do after this?: watch a movie possibly
who are you going to talk to?: umm whoever comes online.. Come online dammit...
where are you going to go?: school...? possibly eilishs house? lol
how old will you be when you graduate?: 18?
what do you wanna be?: i..dont.. know.. yet
what is one of your dreams?: chucky trying to kill me.. now i know why i hate that stupid redheaded doll so much

are you
a vegetarian?: no
a good student: what is 'good?'
good at wake boarding/snow boarding: no
a good singer?: NO
a good actor/actress?: of course lol
a deep sleeper?: yes
good dancer?: i dunno
shy?: nah.. sometimes i guess
outgoing?: depends who im with
a good storyteller?: nah
last words?: bah humbug

cam_wh0re @ 2004-10-20T22:08:00

2004-10-21T02:20:53Z

Gah, I hate this. I hate people. Tons of people. I hate woburn people especially. But i love my alex, and lynsie, and kaitlyn, and kyle..ect..

You can cross the distance outside, i'll be waiting for you inside...

Lately Ive been telling people, to just get a grip and get with the program!
I mean, life doesn't fully suck? Does it? IT CANT!
I mean.. like.. its life.. it cant cOMPLETELY suck.. right?
Well.. i dont think mine does..

Im sick and tired of people.. going all like 'thats flirting'.. fuck you.
Maybe to them its flirting, but to the 2 people or whatever.. thats just how they may act around eachother.. Unless, its a different reason ;)
heh.

I tend to hold grudges.. you know...oh you know.
And all those grudges were haunting me tonight.. i just wanted to yell at people on my msn list. Even people i was really closed to BEFORE tons of things.... but i mean like.. forget about it, right.
Maybe thats why i have 2 msn groups. 'beasts' and 'humans'.. 'humans' are the people i love to be with.. you know. 'beasts'.. are well exactly what it sounds like. Figure out which one your under.

'Friends are forever, guys are whatever'
Bullshit. Guys have like corrupted all of our minds. Like, gosh.. theres not many out these days.

*pauses for sharisse sending me a pic*
My oh my. Now i know why she likes this pic ;) *ahem!*

Viki, im coming tuesday. jus.. you know.. remind me.. I gots to see people.. IS THE COOKIE STILL THERE?!

PATRICK! I made you a picture =) And you better like it, or i'll beat u with a stick! =P

shes right in the middle of a good dream

2004-10-17T02:51:31Z

And I'd give up forever to touch you.. cause I know that you feel me somehow...your the closest to heaven that i'll ever be, and I dont wanna go home right now...

Fun day... =]
Danielle came down.. YAY.. we went to bug eilish.. who was half naked at that time.. then we went to get kristin but then called her instead and she said she'd meet us at wendys.. then we see jason and michii...
then we call steve.. because i told him to come down this weekend..and he met us all at wendys..
then kristin came down...
then it rained.. i love the rain...
then kristin and i saw teej and trevor coming so we raced through the wendys door and jumped them..
kristin jumped tj, i jumped trev
'READY!? SWITCH!' LoL
Then kristin left us =( I love you hunnay bunches.. <3 CHEATING BIIIZZNATCH! bitch pleasE! lmao!
We went to go bug andy.. but he couldnt come out..
then we went to go bug chris.. haha chris's hair =P

Don't you love her madly?

The nervous game.. heh heh =P lol
We went to the park after chris left...
Jason was running with me on his shoulder.. AHH i scream so loud. lol
Steve got pants'd.. lmao! It was high-larious!
Trevors fun to jump...
Danielle i miss youuu.. NEXT WEEKEND YAY!
Kristin- are we sick of pizza yet? nope! LoL Us and our lunches!
eilish- every weekenddd always one of us staying at the others.. yeeesh! Tonite! We watching the 'ants in my pants!!' AND 'disturbing behaviour'.. man we could be in the video store for hours just picking out a damn video! lol

ROCK THE CASBAH!!!!

Bitch please! Its the freakin' shiznit down in the hoooood!

AHHHH!! Twas a fun day!!! I love group days!!! Especially since it was.. a weird group of people.. c'mon like.. me, lish, danielle, kristin, teej, trev, michii and jason.. oh my.. lol
But yeah.. =) tehehe...

Ah! Im looking at kaitlyns name.. DIE BUNNY!!! Oh my, science is so fun...the singing.. the stupid bunny ;) LoL the whole 'property of jim'.. yup good ol' jim.. i think we've just about scared him =P
I think i love you, so what am i so afaidd of, im afraid that im not sure of a love that theres no cure
of! i think i love u isnt that what life was made of!
Do y0u think you love me?

wicka wicka weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2004-10-14T00:43:07Z

I think im going to make a new email soon..
Dont know why.. i jus like new emails.. nice and clean inbox.. mmm
Doug look ive updated! =P
ITS SO COLD IN MY HOUSE!
Why am I always so cold? :'( I neeed a huggggg *hug*

cam_wh0re @ 2004-10-07T18:23:00

2004-10-07T22:29:34Z

Im sO tired...
We got out of school.. at 12:15pm.. and I JUST got home now.. THATS CRAZY!
I went to the assembly first period.. YAY lynsie and kaitlyn!
Second period [histoire].. boring...
Dance-movieeee
And science worksheetsss
Then afterschool I ended up dragging renee down to the store with me....
Then I ended up tempting her to eat lunch with mee... cus she was broke.. and I had money...
'renee loook at all the goood combos.. SMEELLLLL!!!'
We were eating, when christina and tegan came inside.. we were talking to them for about an hour or so...
Then we FINALLY headed off home... we saw louey, omar, and changhai.. so we quickly dropped our stuff at home.. and went to bug them at changhai's.
Changhai has a SEX PAD LoL.. and all him, omar, and louey talk about.. oh boys! tsk tsk! lol
Then I thought hm? Maybe i should get going before my mom kills me since she had no idea where I was and she knew i got off early..
So, i got home..
'hi mom, going out with renee bye!'
Renee and I ended up going to the park.. WHICH IS GONE! NO MORE TEETER TOTTER! STUPID PEOPLE.. so we went to wonder around.. we saw mr.fORDE! LoL! We ended up chatting to him...
Then we left around 4ish... Then we bumped into eilish...
Eilish and I walked renee home.. and eilish dragged me back to her place.. where she showed me WICKED dollarstore stuff.. im so going there tmw!
And now im finally home.. and I have hmw.. but we have a late start tmw.. but yeah..
I love early dismissals..

lets see eye to eye

2004-10-03T20:21:54Z

Im not in a happy mood... im weird...not that im not happy or anything.. im just not in that mood...
I have nothing to blog about.. because nothing is really happening...
I had a weird dream.. where I was was watching myself die.. it was entertaining...
I feel like.. Im in one of my moods where I want to run away.. but then, i'd have nowhere to go.. I wouldnt get very far... maybe past my driveway...
I feel like no one understands me, but then again, I dont tell people my problems, because I dont trust people these days...
Im so complicated.. life's so complicated..
Why couldnt it be as easy as abc.. 123...
Maybe i should start caring about what I want.. and not what others want.. but then i'd be selfish, wouldnt i...?
I dunno.. i have lots to think about.. but i dont feel like thinking...
its sunday.. I dont feel like doing anything on my sundays.. jus lazying around.. or perhaps watching a movie...
Lifes to complicated to think about on sundays

cam_wh0re @ 2004-09-30T18:57:00

2004-09-30T23:06:13Z

Ah shoot. I forgot my history textbook...
I ALWAYS leave a piece of homework at school.. when its due the next day.. bahh
Okay well, Photobucket was actually being nice to me :) so, i got to upload some pictures from the weekend.. of the gang and I.. =)

CHARLIES ANGELS!!! I look so serious

Disco Disco DUCK!

Its myyyy DOUGIE!!!!

Eilish is pimpin' itttt

Eilish and the lovely timbit.. yum =)

Awwww... I kaitlyns sooo cute.. i love her

Shes after me... *runs*

We saw kory that day...

Me and Lynsie! I have a picture of me and lynsie every year since gr 2.. i should compare them...

Crazy long hair

Awww its me and Doug! This was only one of the times.. that i wasnt attacking him...

We're tilteddd

powerpuff girls!

TEEEJJJJJ

LMAO!!!!

cam_wh0re @ 2004-09-29T16:46:00

2004-09-29T20:57:30Z

Im not in the greatest mood...

Mr.Bacon calls my father saying how I didn't do the first [and only so far] assignment we had... and how he doesnt want this continuing to happen..
HE GAVE ME THE ASSIGNMENT BACK WITH MY MARK ON IT YESTERDAY!
Arr.. it pisses me off, cos' my parents are idiots, and dont beileve it when i say i did it.
AND
okay, so the only time i dont have my backpack is during dance... its in the locker room....
Well, alot of my stuff got stolen such as money, and all my bus tickets.

Yeah, that was my fuckin' day....
I hate woburn.. i wanna leave. And im gunna find a way to leave by next year. i hate this school. i hate the people. i hate everything.. or
Im just having a bad day...

Altho, i did get to see cute guy on the bus today..
Well the guy lynsie use to describe as cute guy.. yeah i think it too =P
He walks down keeler.. hm.. maybe i'll stalk him one day...

cam_wh0re @ 2004-09-26T20:32:00

2004-09-27T00:38:28Z

Not a bad weekend.. not one bit :)

Friday:
Went over to centennial to see if skating was opened.. but supposely it doesn't start till octoberish? So, we [we meaning, lyns,lish,doug,tj,brit,theyre friends shannon and scott, and myself].. went over to mcdonalds and just chilled for a bit...

Saturday:
Lish, tj, doug, lynsie, and I watched 'american history x' over at eilish's...
Later it was just lish, doug, rhea and I sitting up on the hill...
The sky was pretty.. it was like orangy.. and im a fan of orange nowadays...

Today:
I was really lazy, and neglecting my hmw...
I watched 2 movies on family channel.. hahaha.. then ended up doing some hmw..
Then lish, doug, and lyns showed up at my door and we headed up to lynsies to watch 'trainspotting'...
doug raped me.. lmao
I kept intruding on doug and eilish.. hahaha
Then from eilish's later, i watched the wedding singer.. i love that movie...

Yep, that was my weekend..
And this week, i doubt i'll do alot of hanging out.. i have tests and assignments due this week.. which kinda sucks.. alot.

cam_wh0re @ 2004-09-22T22:09:00

2004-09-23T02:23:04Z

Ahoy hoy!
Good day.. nothing bad.. lol
Tamara has ditched me 2nd time in math today.. im lonely without her beside me =(
English..yadda yadda.. i like english.. but my teacher scares me...
Lunch-hung in the caf for a bit with michelle, sharisse, and ney.. then went out...
Media arts-looked at our pics.. oh GOD! Bad grid of 3rds.. bad bad bad lol
Civics.. some moon thing.. lol

Eilish called me up.. 'yo wanna go for a walk' 'okay, see ya soon:P'
We hung up on the hill.. such a beautiful hill.. and we both came to the conclusion that we could just like live with our neighborhood friends.. like lyns,brit,teej,kyle,trev,kristin, ect.. with the exception of like doug and kaitlyn.
Like, i seriously could.. i wouldn't need any other friends but THEM. Like we're the neighborhood gang.. we all hang out all the time.. its fun.. i know i can count on all of them...
Like, i love those guys.. If your not one of them.. who cares.. i dont need you.. i have them! and theyre the greatest people alive.. we're all so different in our own ways.. but yet the same.. i love them!! We're like a big family..
Like yeah,i met new and cool people this yr and last.. but i love my neighborhood friends more.. theyve always been there for me.. i loveee you allll!

Wow,
I dont know why.. but theres something thats been making me really happy lately.. its different.. a good different.. and i like it.. well obviously, cos' its making me happy! hmm.. oh wells :) whatever it is.. thanks.

save me

2004-09-21T02:36:25Z

Ive become addicted to reading.. not like thats a bad thing.. but like i dont read often.. but when i do.. i get really into the book.. and i jus keep reading and reading...
But its not a bad thing.. i like reading.. =) I feel smart.

I totally bombed the math test, but then again, i totally forgot about the y=mx+b crap.. which i knew! im telling you, i knew this stuff!
Civics was fun.. we got into groups and got at war.. but then we wanted to resolve the conflict safely, but then 2 groups wouldnt.. so we joined up.. and got to war.. it was fun =)
Media arts we got to take pictures.. i loooove taking pik-dures. =) I need to get a couple of my films developed too...

I visited my daddy at the hospital.. for like 2 secs i was there.. cos' I didnt wanna bug him.. but yah, hes doing okay.. i think?
And i bought junk food.. cos' its monday, and i was home alone till 8ish.. and i cant cook.. like renee said if i cooked, my parents wouldnt have anything to come back too! =P

I have homework...and alot of it.. to get too.. at this time of night.
Im such a procrastinator

wake me up, before you go go

2004-09-20T02:24:27Z

okay, so like.. im so dragging alex down here for an adventure.. i hav uploaded the pics.. and here they are!
Oh and yeah, pretty good weekend =P
Happy 16th viki!

Doug and I!

The 'exit' sign at school! lol

Dougs ass.. hahahaha

Alex's foot!

Doug

Some random pope kid we stopped to take a picture of! lol!

Hiroto and leila<3 awwww!

This wasnt afterschool.. but its funny.. me.. looking retarded.. peter.. all.. sweaty ha!.. and kaitlyn aww!

Woburn id tag! lol

Me, peter, and lyns.. i feel short lol

cam_wh0re @ 2004-09-18T00:36:00

2004-09-18T04:38:50Z

What a good'ay.
School was schoool.. dance seemed like it took forever...
Afterskewl, Tj, Brandon, Scott, and josh? i think it was came down...
Alex walked with us.. and we were on our mission.. we took Digi cam pics! I shall post soontime.. We even asked some random guy to stand still so we could take a pic hahaha..
We even got a great shot of dougs ass... hahaha
Funny day...
I also got to visit my daddy in the hospital.. which was nice...
I'll post pics of the mission soontime! And pics from yesterday too...!

When I come around...

2004-09-14T22:59:44Z

Baby, your my ecstacy.

Im so tired, i need more sleep, i hate getting up early JUST to go to school.
math was math
English was english.. i now sit at the front =\
lunch was lunch
civics was civics.. watched more of the 'pay it forward'
media arts was media arts.. looked at some of mr.bacons pictures

Wanna know what you're feeling if your feeling alone
I wanna hear if you still care
The last time i remember you was the last time i wasn't scared

When the nights start fading and the mornin' arrives
I wanna still feel you around
Will you creep into my head again and pick me up off the ground
Once more and tell me what you're fighting for

Gotta try gotta try for tmw (8) you cant see through today...

Im in one of my 'get the fuck away from me you bitch.'
I dont know why.. its my tired-ness...

I wish I didnt exist...
I wish i was never born...

AOLLLL!!!! I totally forgot about aol.. and all the kool american friends I have on it.. aol here i come.

I have 3 bruises.. on my leg.. that I have NO idea where they came from.. im started to think, someone beats me in my sleep =|

I bought playdoh... its fun to play with..
The dollarstore has tons of neat stuff that im amused by...
ITs purple..
and gooey...
yadda yadda...

I better get going on my history hmw...
yadda yadda.

Milalala(8)

do do do, da da da

2004-09-13T21:07:20Z

shareef dont like it... ROCKIN' THE CASBAH! ROCK THE CASBAH!

I just ate my candy form the dollarstore that was suppose to last me my dinner as well.. but now its gone.. Good ol' tummy.

I looove kristin... I miss hanging with her.. kristin baby, I miss you!! Even though, i see you like everyday.. i missss you =(
Our song<3
I think I love you, so what am i so afraid of, im afriad that im not sure of, a love that theres no cure for..=)

Kaitlyn and I were also singing that during science.. i think everyone is sick of us singing it by now.. haha

Went to lunch with my kristin, shane, and kory.. haha..

Today was my lazy day, Im so lazy.. and i hav a mini essay to write for history.. bah!

Im always gunna be a highcastle girlie...Lyns, shar, rhea, ney, dani, niki, and I.. we're always gunna be known as the 'highcastle girlies'.. even tho half of us split upppp.. I still love youuu all.

SHE BLINDED ME WITH SCIENCE!

I loooooveeee the 80s...
Now, im struggling to tie my tie. BAH YOU TIE!
I give up.

cam_wh0re @ 2004-09-12T12:02:00

2004-09-12T16:08:56Z

What a fun weekend =)
Friday: Hung with Eilish for a bit.. and doug... then lynsie and brandon and teej came down.. and we moseyed our way to lynsies to watch 'the punisher' (was that it?)...
Lynsie, Eilish, and I are charlies angels!!! =P POWERPUFF GIRLS!
Later on, I got into a spat with my mom.. she doesnt beileve anything I say.. im not a bad child.. god...

Saturday: Went to the 'cabbagetown' festival with eilish and her mom and aunt.. but we split from them...
Got some cheap tapes... skirt.. shirt.. ha. go me =P Eilish got this leather thing.. 'you look hot in leather!' lol.
Later, we ended up renting 'A clockwork orange', 'the girl next door', and 'bride of chucky'.
So, i ended up staying at her place for the night...
A clockwork orange was an okay movie.. but it was twisted.. which made it good. I heard tho, that the book is better.
The girl next door was a good movie =P I want a geeky boyfriend.
Bride of chucky.. i saw it when i was younger.. but yeah.. meh bleh.. chucky's funny =P 'why dont you go ask martha stuart!' 'FUCK martha stuart!' haha...
Yuuup, fun weekend =)

And today? Oh.. I have homework..ew. =P

cam_wh0re @ 2004-09-10T16:17:00

2004-09-10T20:40:53Z

AHHH!!!
Im in such a good mood.. and I dunno.. why.. lol.. but I am. I was all day!
I think im gunna like die in math...ah well.
We had to write some 3 paragraph thing in english today..
Lunch.. lunch is yummy =)
Media arts... haha i love idania.. we're gunna have fun in classes together...
Civics.. we watched a movie...
Kyle and kaitlyn FINALLY! They're so cute.. i love them together...
they deserve eachother.. like kyle wouldnt expect anything out of kaitlyn.. nothing serious. .yet, nor nothing, jus to have fun.. Aww.. they so cute =)
Renee, Sharisses, and My walk home was pretty funny.. we walked with john and ben.. 9ners haha.. So sharisse is going out with this guy.. karran.. and lets jus say my comments kept gettin me slapped by her. lol
'hmm.. he went out with that other girl.. mel? i think he has a thing for sluts'
'=O! *slap*
Renee: 'nawww you get better taste the older you get' <something along those lines..'
'yeah, but he doesnt LOOK the age' *hand motion down*
'=O! *slap*

lmao.. I love those girls..
Sharisse use to be all 'I can look at other guys and you cant'.. not like i had wanted to at that time.. and now i can say it back to her HAHA.. Renee and i kept saying that to her...

I love my life. I mean, so what its not complete.. nor perfect.. but I mean, I have NOTHING to complain about..
I have a feeling, i'll get better grades this year.. I dont smoke.. and i dont really drink..its jus not my thing.. I have the greatest friends.. i hope i dont have enemies..
Okay, so maybe so one things missing..the so called 'love' life. I dont have one =P Big woop!=P I really couldnt care less about boys, im not seaching for my 'perfect' boy.. cos' no ones perfect.. okay, maybe hes so damn close to being perfect.. but thats not the point! =P I dont' care about boys right now.. yeah i'll do the occaisonal 'Hes hot' to some random hot guy.. but you know what I mean.

I dunno, Like, i have nothing to worry about anymore...
I remember having this convo with dani.. about how people depend on her to be smart.. and how people usually depend on me to put their frown upside down.. and i told her 'i didnt care'.. even tho i know i do.
I dont care about so many things anymore, yeah, i admit i was a jealous bitch before.. but ive grown up from that stage.. and i was insecure and paranoid.. but ive almost grown upfrom those stages.. 'maturing'
I dont think ive changed.. im still the SAME person i was last year.

I have nothing to complain about... im thinking positively now :)

cam_wh0re @ 2004-09-09T21:27:00

2004-09-10T01:34:09Z

I think this will be a good year =)
Altho, i may change my food n' nutrition class... maybeee...
I looovee my history class!! I have like everyone in it.. and i like dance.. i think that'll be a fun course... We were dancing to the 50s,60s, AND 70s.. even tho i like the 80s the best.. and we didnt get to do that.. lol
And my teachers are all nice :)

Things are WAY different this year..so many peoples have changed... but i guess its for the better...

Lifes good..
Im happy.
Why?
I havent figured that out yet =P tehehe

trash can.

2004-09-08T23:27:38Z

Im like the trash in a trash can.
Throw me away.
Im in one of my 'blah' moods... i dont know. blah

Eilish is right, I make myself complicated, I make myself so no one understands me.. I just make myself like that. I don't even understand myself. I barely trust anyone...
Im too complicated even for myself. Im a mystery.
Maybe one day, someone will figure me out.
Maybe one day, that someone will be me.
-_-

I hate life.. grr to you.
The past is the past. Its forgotten.